i totally remember now

I remember what I was going to write about in the latest janie news:

I had a case of the itchy boob today...it was horrible...i need new soap for the clothes cleaning. It was only the right one, the left is fine! go figure!

mountains

I saw the mountains as I was coming home from work today and it was very beautiful. It is most likely my favorite part of living in Washington is the view!

Also in today's news of Janie:

I talked to the craziest lady ever, who was screaming at me "I WANT TO SPEAK TO YOUR SUPERVISOR!!!" and she was saying this over and over again. I don't think she fully understood that I was the supervisor she was transferred to...actually I still don't even really know what she wanted because she wouldn't tell me. That's ok cause I pawned it off on one of my bosses.

I also left the house before emily got up, so I was able to bike to work even though it was 28 degrees outside. It was so cold it felt like my face was going to fall off. It was a nice ride though and I went a little longer this morning once I got over to the eastside. It was fun...

there was something else I was going to include, but I have forgotten what that was.

sleepy...

I want to go to sleep....that is all.

I don't want this anymore....

I had this phase "I don't want this anymore" in my head all day at work. And then it was followed by "who took all the pens".

Today went by fast and was a good day. Band practice was cut short, but that is alright. I've realized that there is a lot more that I need to start doing with music. I want to get some of my ideas and things out on paper. I have had stuff in my head for years and I think it will need to come out before new things can be absorbed. I was talking about taking drum lessons again and I think I can finally make some time for it.

I've been really bitter at work recently and I've realized I don't like many people there. I have a few that I love and others I could do completely without. The politics of the office are a pain in the ass and I've been wondering if it would be better anywhere else. I'm not going to leave, I do love the job...and my bosses, which out weighs any bullshit that might go on there. But I mean the people will infect you with negativity. It's something that is almost a given, and it takes a lot of strength to not give into it. I've realized that it's a job, and not the only thing in my life. It's important, but only for the basic things I need. I need to live my life and work to live, not live to work (yeah I know someone important said that...or close to it.)

I wrote in a little journal today. Two lines, the ones I started this post with...The first one is more important: "I don't want this anymore". I guess it can stand for a lot of things, but mostly fear. My fear is what has held me back all these years, and I can really let it change me into something else. I've been able to get over a lot of things in the last three years, that used to be horrible to even think about doing, but now it's just getting old. I want to do so much more...and I will.

SO THIS IS FUN

I've been really busy, but I have two minutes to type....here it goes.

I had a great weekend and played a great show on friday. It was fun. Also I went to a bridal shower for Abbie and that was a trip...the house that it was in was beautiful!! We also had a party for abbie and rich as well and that was great...lets just say a private room for karoke helps everyone let loose!

I realized that work

is really a place to work. I decided to not socialize so much and not worry about all the stupid crap that goes on at work. I don't want a whole bunch of friends and for people to feel like they must invite me to there party, cause I won't go anyways.

I'm the type of person that will tell you I might go to your party, but then find something good on the history channel and call it a night. Or someone else will call and it will be a far better event.
Whatever...why why why do people not take work seriously and still get the special treatment. God I hate that.

On a good note, I have a job and I have not gotten laid off. I guess that is the best thing right now...a good job.

I'm so done

I just wrote the most bitter blog post about my job...but I had to do it on my other blog...it was bad. But it felt fucking good. There has been some shit going on recently and I'm glad to get some of it out...thank goodness for waste!

But on a happy note...I'm thinking about getting a new camera...to take some pretty pictures and post them. It might not happen for awhile, cause I don't seem to have any money. But I'll try to get it done on the cheap. If anybody has a used one that they want to sell, they should hook me up.

One thing I would like to say about my job is that I love my boss...I feel like I could tell her anything.